Rough Day

So today it has been rough with food.  I am definitely eating emotionally.  My job is up in the air....and I'm under-employed as it is.  Next week my favorite kid leaves the program I run so there is no telling if I'll ever see her again and I worry for her.  I haven't had a brownie since October and I am craving one like my life depends on it!  I haven't been doing well making sure I eat at least 3 meals and 2 snacks a day so that certainly hasn't helped matters at all.  I basically binge eat when I get home as that has been the only meal I've consumed for the day.
I went to Costco on Monday to grocery shop and saw that they finally had Jorge's book in stock.  I flipped through it and decided not to buy it.  After the 13 weeks and the videos and discussion on the boards, I don't think I need it.  I have to admit, I have mixed feelings about Jorge and his "cure".  I've been doing a lot of research about him and his anti-sugar predecessors.  I understand the basics of Jorge's plan (tho' he never really explained the science or foundation for the 15/6 ratio during the online coaching experience) and use that in addition to monitoring fiber and yes, the meals of the Flat Belly Diet.  When I am actually eating properly, I graze all day.  Morning starts out with a leisurely cup of coffee or two and then around 11am I eat Uncle Sams cereal.  Then for lunch at around 130-230pm I have a wrap or two with tuna and spinach, eggs and cheese, chicken and spinach and then around 5pm I eat a snack of nuts, olives or cheese.  At 7 or 730pm I eat dinner....protein and veggie and a glass of wine.
I really need to make it a priority to eat.  I have gone from 161.6 pounds (Oct. 19, 2009) to maintaining 148 for the last month.  If I ate regularly it would probably start going down again and if I added some exercise it would definitely go down.
I have not prepared well for the day when my brownie craving would return.  The Green & Black's chocolate is great but doesn't do a great job substituting as a brownie.  I have researched some Stevia cookbooks and plan to purchase two.  I think since some of my fellow BFCers are blogging about recipes I'll join the bandwagon (and honor Julie & Julia) and blog about recipes from the Stevia cookbooks.

Total Health website, Probiotics, liquid stevia

On Thursday December 3, I placed an order with Total Health discount vitamins online.  I received my package yesterday.  Two items are on back order - wish I'd known that when I placed the order.  Total Health offers free ground shipping on orders over $85 and under 5 pounds.  I ordered 4 bottles of Natural Factor's 12/12 probiotic that Jorge recommends.  This website has the cheapest price for these pills $13.97/60 capsule bottle.  I had been wanting to try several recommended products and after A LOT of internet research, I settled on ordering from this company.  I will have to remember for future purchases that it will take almost 2 weeks for the order to be processed and delivered.  If I do not have a large order to place, I may go to either vitacost or netrition.  They have flat $5 shipping but most of their stuff costs more than Total Health.
Natural Factor's 12/12 Probiotic-
Take one pill 3 times daily with a meal.  Keep refrigerated.  I have taken 3 all at once this evening and I will probably take another 3 when I go to bed.  I haven't been on probiotics for 2 or 3 weeks now, as I was waiting for this shipment to arrive.  I'll share my thoughts on the efficacy of this product later in the week.
NOW and Sweetleaf Liquid Stevia-
2 fluid ounce bottles-NOW brand significantly less expensive than Sweetleaf but Sweetleaf offers more flavors.  I purchased French Vanilla, Hazelnut, Lemon, Peppermint, Orange Creme and plain.  I look forward to flavoring my water and coffee with these.  Hmmm, I'll try the peppermint in water right now.  Okay, the sweet comes through more so than the peppermint.  My water is room temperature so that may have something to do with it too.  I've noticed that mint comes through either when it is hot or very cold.  If plain coffee is brewed in the morning, I'll try it in my coffee.  I love mint tea, so this will definitely be used to sweeten that.  I see the lemon being used to sweeten/flavor my water.
As I try these products I will post reviews of them.