I honestly could go on about this in a rant and I spent half the night writing this post in my head but I'm just too emotional and scattered right now. Long and short of it is, my husband said he is divorcing me and I know he is having an affair. I've spent 10 years raising HIS children and taking care of him and this is the thanks I get in return. I've feared on some level he would do this.....wait for me to raise HIS kids and then get rid of me for a younger model and he has.
It has been hard dealing with this on my own. I don't want to share with my family because of what stress it will add to them and they have enough already. I don't have any friends locally and I have to admit that my BFF who moved away in 2007 back to NY has really let me down with this. I'm at a total loss for what to do and to make matters worse, I don't have the money to go anywhere. I'm stuck and I hate it.
I've been so out of sorts that it actually took me the better part of 2 days to realize this is the second time he's rejected me and I'm mad at myself for getting into this.
Eh, well, the upside is, I have managed to break 140 pounds and enter the elusive 130s so I might be at my goal weight for my 25th reunion at the end of the month.