It's been a while since I've posted. I have had a rough summer. The heat here, much like the rest of the East Coast, is unbearable. Add to that a teenage boy with AS and ODD, a job I hate and the "promised one" no where in sight and limited visits home to Virginia to see my family has made me a stressed out eating mess. Yesterday I just realized that I'd not taken my probiotics in a week. I don't get on the scale often but thought I was looking a little fuller in my lower abdominal area and lo and behold-when I got on the scale I wasn't happy with what I saw. Needless to say, I've not been thoughtfully eating. Well, that isn't totally true. I have been very conscious of staying away from candy bars, soda and baked goods even though I've really wanted them. My carbs are high...I know that and honestly, I don't think the carbs are my weight issue...it's the hidden sugars. I have gotten weak in my date night dinners and have added dessert in addtion to my "treat" margaritas. When date night started, I was thrilled to have the margarita and relished it. Now, with my stress levels and emotions in a negative place, I'm using the 'ritas and dessert as coping mechanisms. I have also returned to the very bad habit of eating once a day-dinnner. I've had nothing but coffee for the day more days this past week than I want to admit.
So, this week I began looking for another job in earnest. I would love to leave this job immediately but unfortunately, it doesn't look like that will happen. I will continue to plug along and I'm going to make myself a priority. I have a lot of paperwork to complete by Sunday evening but I also want to take the time to set myself up for success this next week so I don't feel so bad. I want to iron my clothes and make lunch for the week so I don't have to scramble to get it done in the morning. I also want to make a large batch of tea-spearmint and a new one that is green tea with ginger, coconut and lemon grass. Just doing these few simple things, I hope will help with some of the stress next week. I also intend to use the tracker again until things settle down for me.
Are any of you introverts? I am and I don't go out of my way to make friends or engage folks in small talk. However, it has become painfully clear to me that I might need to find a friend who lives within 50 miles of me! :-)
